Break Every Chain

I almost packed my things to head back home. There must be a reason why God did not allow to go up to Georgia with my car initially. I had a "mental moment" Wednesday night. Questions of what was I doing here, how did I get here, what was I thinking, was I even thinking? The night before I cried myself to sleep and this night I simply could not go to sleep. So now I found myself on my knees, on my feet, pacing back in forth in the 4x4 room that I will spend the next three years having mental moments.

Yet, still knowing that there will come one moment that will cancel out every moment that I was left with more questions then answers. That moment when I will hear Christ Himself say, "Well done good and faithful servant." What a glorious day it will be when these mental moments will only be memories and testimonies on how God broke every chain and I came out of this journey Victorious.

Just that quickly an answer was given where I was able to not only travel to see friends in Tampa but my family in Miami. How precious is time when u know u have just a few moments of it to really capture the moment. Thank you God for reviving me once again and breaking every chain!

God's Glory

So I am two weeks into Seminary school and it is nothing like my first Graduate degree. My Masters in Social Work was a walk around the park compared. Seminary is like an 100k up the mountain, down the valley, across the river and through the woods. In laymen's term it is a journey! A journey that I am called and willing to grow through in order to see God's Glory.
Which reminds me of a song that was sung during worship service this morning "for your glory, I will do anything, just to see you, to behold you as my king... I wanna be where you are!" The Apostle asked a question if we really knew what we were singing, what we were asking, and what it meant to see God's glory. Was I truly ready to do anything, even if trials and tribulation comes my way, even if my tuition isn't paid, I lose my car, my house, fall ill, even if death pays me a visit or have to mourn a love one, would I honestly be able to sing that song and mean every word? There was less hands raised as the choir began to sing again. I myself was in deep thought and had to think of the worse case scenario, and I'll admit that my hands did not go up right away. Yet the line that always compels me from that song is wanting to be where God is, and ultimately that is my goal, that should be all of our mission in this life... is to return to our maker, bask in His presence, and enjoy the glory that is HE!

Now I Become Myself

I got baptized again. Last week while I was visiting a church that I often worship at during my visit in Atlanta the Apostle made an alter call for baptismal. I, already having accepted Christ as my Lord and personal Savior and being baptized at the age of 13, always felt the the desire to rededicate myself. Why? Well, for one I was young when I took that decision to follow Christ and though I have no regrets, that decision was not solely my own. The church had more say on which path my life should take and exactly at what point in my life it should embark on this particular stage.
This time my baptism was about me and Christ. It was my decision. Truly renewing myself and putting the old things behind me and embracing the new. And it felt good! There was no major difference simply that I felt renewed and refreshed. This public display was really a private matter between me and God. From this moment on I no longer live in the shadows of others but come into my true self with Christ. He being in the core of it all leading and guiding me through this journey of my adult life.

Luke 18:28-30

So I finally settled here in Atlanta, Ga at the Interdenominational Theological Center by way of the M.I.A. I'll admit that I am very much homesick. This transition was harder than the first time I went off to college as a undergrad at the University of South Florida. There is a lot that I left behind to fulfill this calling, but it still doesn't compare to all that was given up on the cross for me.
Presently, I am sitting in my new apartment that just may be my home for the duration of this dual program at ITC. I met my neighbor, who happens to be a year ahead of me and is in the same fellowship program. She was very inviting and welcoming which made me feel a bit at ease to tough it out the first night on campus. I had the options of staying over a friends, but I had to be a big girl.
Tomorrow night I have orientation and I believe I will receive my spring semester schedule and information to make it all official. So far everything has been working out smoothly and my prayer is that journey continues in this path.
I have no worries and no doubt that God has me covered. I am grateful for everyone who is and will pray for me. Even for those He will place in my life for just a season for this purpose. And when this journey is approaching its destination towards completion, my hope is that God is pleased and I can truly be used for the building of His Kingdom.