What's Going On?

So I haven't blogged for an entire month, and Monday will be April 1st. So much has happened, and is happening. I landed the job at FedEx that I initially did not get but another position opened up, and I was given the offer. I took it in a heartbeat and I am not juggling part time work with a full time graduate coursework.
Next, I have been pushing to host the second open mic event on the campus of the Interdenominational Theological Center. That in itself are some challenges when it comes to funding, yet I am still hopeful. I am actually exploring outside venues in Atlanta that may want something like and open mic/ talent showcase on a more consistent basis.
Also, spiritually I have had some experience in my personal life that has me questioning religion and how people and myself "do church". That will be a blog in the very near future. I have joined a church and may already be considering canceling my membership... "Ugh... That sounds so wrong." That too will be discussed in a future blog.
Lastly, I have a school girl crush that makes me feel like I am in grade school all over again. The last time I remember feeling like is about anyone is this one guy in college who I thought we were perfect for each other. Ends up our friendship was worth more then having a relationship that may lead up to us resenting each other "if we didn't make it". Turns out our friendship didn't even make it. I mean we are still cordial but we don't even keep up with one another like we use to... Time & Distance could be the cause or simply life.
Anywho, back to my crush, which I have one more month before it turns out to be the full blown... "I REALLY LIKE YOU!" So far I have written at least 6 poems made up 2 songs in my head and over a dozen dreams/ daydreams/ fantasies. What is it about this guy? Well, I wish I could explain it in just a sentence or a word, but the truth is when this crush begun I barely knew his name. So there really isn't much I can say because I barely know him myself, but my spirit wants to get to know the spirit in him, and I have a feeling they may already know one another. Just waiting for the heart and mind to allow this encounter to happen. And whenever the big guy gives the green light on my happily ever after.
I find myself feeling guilty at times because I feel like I have no business feeling this way and my insecurities would have me believe that it is a waste of my time to entertain some thought that I could possibly be with one that I actually like and he likes me back... MUTUALLY. What I mean by that is this... Most of the guys I have ever been in a relationship with have been hook ups or he like me and I will give him a chance but doesn't necessarily mean that I initially was interested. More like I learn to like and appreciate the person I was with because he showed a deep interest in me.
So now, I am in Miami for Resurrection weekend, and this guy I met in late November has been showing some interest. He is attractive and there is chemistry especially when we are dancing, but he is my ordinary type and I want extraordinary. I want something like never before. I want "the one" and yes, I believe he exist. One made just for me! The only challenge now, is that I must get me right so when he comes along I don't sabotage it, because I do have a recipe for that and the end results seems to be consistent every time.
That's basically March in a nutshell, an hopefully come April I will keep up with my weekly blog.